Monday, April 6, 2009

Sometimes I feel a little Dark!

"Make it a rule of life never to regret and never to look back. Regret is an appalling waste of energy; you can't build on it; it's only for wallowing in." ~ Katherine Mansfield

"It is better to look ahead and prepare than to look back and regret."
~ Jackie Joyner-Kersee

"Never regret yesterday. Life is in you today, and you make your tomorrow."
~ L. Ron Hubbard

"Look at your past. Your past has determined where you are at this moment. What you do today will determine where you are tomorrow. Are you moving forward or standing still?" ~ Unknown

Each of us have gone through some dark times in our lives. I personally have at times wondered if I would ever see good times again. I have to tell you that even though we may go through dark times or what seems like very hard times; we will always come through them somehow and there is always a brighter day for us somewhere near. I think sometimes we have to look around at things other people are suffering through to appreciate our own "hard times"! Most days when I see what others are dealing with I feel very blessed not to have to contend with those particular troubles.

I have had a past that was often filled with issues. We moved a lot. Money was a rarity. I cried tears enough to drown an elephant. Trust was broken and lives fell apart. I survived and though I walked through some dark days I soon found a new Path into a new light! I regret nothing of my life. For even in those dark moments I was learning and growing. I am who I am today because of the tears I shed back then!

These two poems were written during very dark days of my life. I am sure that everyone knows we all have those dark days. It is how we come through those darkest of days that shapes the person we will become. If you feel that the world is a dreary place right now look around you.. somewhere there is a person who will allow you to see that their are others with worse problems.
Don't stand still! Move forward ~ even if an inch feels like a mile! I try to look for a blessing of some kind even if it is small every day. I am blessed in many ways but just as a sample ~ I have a roof over my head and food to eat.... I am wearing clothes and am warm... I have family... I am sane. ~ ( well I think I am sane - If I am not same I don't know it yet and so am still blessed!)
Have a great day!

Stolen Emotions

What wickedness have you wrought?
A shadow of betrayal drowns us
as my perceptions shudder.
Once we drank of paradise;
Innocent and glad hearted.
But your heart perished...
A feverish vision of lies.
emotions follow pain,
pain follows memories
Love dissolved.
in a storm of bitterness
I condemn you.

By: Patricia Sawyer

Torn Apart

The cloak of night falls
without a sound,
Cold and alone are we.
the understanding for which you pine
flares once, then dies.
swallowed by your obscessions
All hope must end.
Your heart desires no more.
how could YOU not understand?
Our dark emotions surround us,
Save us from ourselves.

By: Patricia Sawyer


Big Time said...

Everytime I think times are bad for me, I talk to somebody who has it worse and I realize am okay. Love you Patsy. Reuben

joel said...

It's always good to have someone like you to remind us that life is all about moving forward and the past is but lessons we must digest.

Pblacksaw said...

Big time~ I do that too. It gets harder to find someone worse than me but.. I do know I will be ok.. I will eat at least.. I have chickens!
Love you Reuben!

Joel~ Life doesn't allow for any of us to stand still it will nudge us along or if we fall we will be trampled in the oncoming foot traffic.. I'd much rather learn from my mistakes and move on..

Have a wonderful day!