Tuesday, April 20, 2010

My World... Some Days I want to Run Away!

"Courage is doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared." ~Eddie Rickenbacker

"Those who danced were thought to be quite insane by those who could not hear the music."
~ John Milton

"There is nothing more notable in Socrates than that he found time, when he was an old man, to learn music and dancing, and thought it time well spent."
~ Michel de Montaigne


Yesterday in My World was not a very good day.. The pollen is trying it's dead level best to kill me.. filing my throat and lungs with yucky stuff and causing me to have to suck on an inhaler way more than I like to.. Not that I ever like to.... but you get the idea..

I had dreamed all sorts of awful things the night before and woke up yesterday morning in an all around foul mood to start off a day that also came with a headache and a arm that was hurting.. Dave and I had raked and pulled weeds and did general yard work the afternoon before so I knew why my muscles ached.. I made the coffee strong hoping that would help and set about doing the same old same old things we always do.. and then things got worse..

We were feeding the animals and I had done my part of the feeding and was dragging a contrary water hose that snaked around and grabbed everything in it's path and tangled up on every tree root and snag it could find.. I had already called it a few choice words when I heard Dave say..
" OH NO! Oh NO You Don't!" and I turned just in time to see one of my ring neck doves fluttering towards a tree across the yard.. I am ashamed to say I yelled at Dave... I knew it wasn't his fault.. It wasn't any one's fault... But I think I had had all I could take and just went crazy for a few minutes.. Romeo..( he's a male Dove!) never looked back but did land in a tree not too far away.. about that time Juliet..(what can I say.. I'm a sucker for Lovers!) began to flap and beat herself against the cage calling out in the most mournful and sad song I have ever in my whole life heard.. afraid she would hurt herself I opened the cage and set her free as well.. then I cried...
I cried because Romeo escaped.. I cried because I could hear Juliet crying.. I cried because he left her.. I cried because I had a bad dream.. I cried and cried and cried.. I hated the whole world.. I loved my birds... I wanted to be at the beach or the mountains or anywhere but watching my bird do his best to fly away on his rarely used wings... Dave did everything he could to follow Romeo and honestly he would only fly a little way at the time but never let Dave catch him.. Juliet would fly and then come back to the chicken area of the yard and cry some more.. Dave disappeared and in a few minutes came back with Cooper at his side.. Cooper kept telling me that they wouldn't leave but I wasn't hearing that.. I reminded them that these birds were born in a cage and had never had to look for food... I told them that Doves mate for life... and what would one do without the other?... I was afraid a cat would get them or a snake or a man with a gun.. I cried the whole time we fed the animals and even after that I would go look to see if they had came back and I would cry again.. I did see both Birds in the chicken garden eating food that had fell on the ground and I put them more on top of the cage.. I filled a dish with good clean water and set out for them too.. and I sat there in the dark while Dave worked and Cooper slept the night away.. and listened to them coo...somewhere in the distance and I cried a little more...

Early this morning when I got up Juliet was sitting on the lowest tree limb next to the porch.. as soon as I went into the greenhouse room where all the other birds live she started cooing at me.. I held out my arm and she bowed and bobbed on the limb.. I decided to do a little alone time yard work and as soon as I grabbed some coffee I went outside.. She sang a sad song and sat above me on the tree.. Dave soon came out and joined me as she cooed and followed me from place to place in the bucket garden.. I pulled lemon basil and she flew to the ground to taste the fallen seeds.. Dave hurried to get some birdseed for her and she almost ate from his hand.. she finally ate a few bites while sitting on an antique tea cart and looking at me as if to say.."Why am I out here in the wild world?" Dave decided then that he was on a mission to recapture my Doves.. he followed Juliet .. as she followed me.. around from place to place all day.. he would be so close that he could almost touch her and away she would fly.. cooing as she went and from a tree on the edge of the yard Romeo would coo back to her.. It was almost as if they were playing a silly game with Dave.. But Dave was determined and just before he left for work he recaptured who we believe to be Juliet.. I went out a while ago to check on her and she was sitting up on her perch looking at me as if she was happy to be back in her safe little cage.. she wasn't calling out to Romeo while I was out there but I did hear them cooing back and forth when I was folding laundry earlier.. I am happy to have her back even though I am the one who set her free.. I am still hoping that Romeo will decide to come near enough that one of us can return him safely to the cage as well... as long as we can hear him singing I will know he is still nearby.. he will be able to eat and drink and rest on top of his cage if he wants too.. and I will hope.. for both Juliet and myself that we will catch him..

I worked in the yard most of today.. we accomplished a lot of things that we needed to get done.. I planted some flower seeds and more hot pepper seed than we could ever use.. Dave unclogged a pond pump and cleaned a frog waterspout between moments of trying to capture the escaped doves.. Dave and David cut a lot of grass and we rearranged things out by the pool... Cooper came out to help with the egg gathering and feeding.. he crowed at the roosters and they crowed at him.. he visited with the big dogs and scratched the hogs fat behind while she grunted something that sounded like thanks at him.. I guess one could say that everything was almost back to normal in our little world.. Thanks for stopping by! Have a great Night..


Lin said...

Oh, how sad that the birds got out! I can understand why you were crying--I'd do the same thing. About all you can do is to leave them food and water, hoping to teach them how to search for their own food and water. Hopefully, Romeo will want to come home again. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Sunshine said...

Tonight, I am crying with you for my heart is broken too.

Pblacksaw said...

Lin~ Romeo is still here.. we almost had him yesterday as he sat and ate but as soon as we came towards him he hopped to a higher limb.. we are leaving him feed and water on top of their cage..

Sunshine~ I have dried the tears.. Thanks for crying with me.. hopefully I will either get another pair or catch Romeo eventually...

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